As I observe this statement, my spiritual teaching points me in two directions: "I'm even too ashamed to pray..."We always need to pray when we are ashamed, that's what God wants us to do.
Pray for God's forgiveness and ask always for strength to stand up to temptations - God didn't give us those, they come from the Adversary and are strong but God is stronger and can help us to overcome.
Besides, as Christians, the blood of Christ at the cross has already washed us clean of sin, past, present and future but we must always pray to God and confess our sins continually ask for forgiveness and ask for His strength to face strong temptations.
"I know that I am the problem."Actually, that is true but read, study and learn about God in the bible, wherein He tells us that we are all sons and daughters of Adam and Eve, our earthly ancestors, whose original sin covered us all. They didn't come up with sin on their own, that old Adversary, who is always at war with God, lured them into sin because God gave them the right to decide good or evil.
Yes, God does know that you are a sinner (as we all are) but He is on your side, He is in your corner wanting you to choose good choices over bad ones -- but He is always there for you. No matter what you have done or how long you have been making bad choices, turn to the One who made you "in His own image;" the One who "Has plans for you, plans for good and not for evil;" the One who "gives you life and wants to give it abundantly....."
Uplifting post, I enjoyed it very much.