Can only offer that, aside from chemical imbalance, chronic depression can have a root cause in something or someone who causes a person to feel inferior in some way. The difficult part is refusing to let others decide one's worth and to really, truly understand that God had already decided that by sacrificing His only Son for us. If our Heavenly Father places such a high value on us, no one else can take that away from us unless we let them.
*UPDATE FROM RECOVFERING FREEPER:
Dear FReepers;
I have to compile my journal tonight, but will share a couple strange dynamics to pass along to the group:
- I'm slightly meaner and more earnest and honest. Someone mentioned "Dry Drunk". I think it's hidden Recoverer starting to come out.
- I still drink a helluvalot of fluids (diet sodas, iced tea, Snapple, etc.) and STILL do not urinate often - maybe twice a day. I'm almost scared about this.
- For the religious (particularly Christian/Protestant), I recommend two relatively short books in the Bible that are easy reads and very very, almost frightenly-relevant: Ecclesiastes ("all is vanity" - the lament of the successful King who had it all and still hated it until he found God), and Galatians (Forgive yourselves, you jerks, God knows who you are!)
Today "feels" like a Friday, since I've worked my butt off the last two nights. Only craving was leaving work tired last night, but that first Diet Pepsi, opening my mail, and petting my cat took care of that.
I'll keep in touch, believe me. I'm no longer the same person I was last Sunday night. My doctor (which I forgot to mention in my extended journal that I've e-mailed you) told me that in 5-6 weeks I would "be a completely different person".
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