I gave up, on "we" a long time past. Follow your heart and do the next right thing- no matter what the lower self, would have you fear. Practical experience is the bouy marker, for my soul's clumsy embrace with honesty. Learning from my dishonest mistakes, has been, the only way for my dumb azz to barely approach truth. Other than that, I cannot answer your questions.
I can identify with such a learning program and perspective.
Thanks.