I hear ya,Paved.
The essence of God is not something than cannot be intellectualized.His power must be FELT.
I'm not mad or upset at Mineral and others who deny His existence.I was just like them long ago.Their disbelief doesn't make them bad people.Only folks that are missing out on something very special and beautiful.
What about those like me, who were like you long ago? I know what I'm "missing out" on, and I don't miss it at all. To me, no comfort or happiness is better than false comfort and happiness. That's probably why I abhor mind-altering drugs, including most prescription painkillers.
"I'm not mad or upset at Mineral and others who deny His existence.I was just like them long ago."
Well, I was just like you long ago, with a full-scaled belief in the Christian story. I seem to have outgrown it. That's why I have no animus towards Christians, or any other religious believers, for that matter.
Religion is a very useful thing.