Do you consider yourself a faithful Catholic? What does it mean to you to be a Roman Catholic?
With regards to your not understanding what the Church teaches, what are you doing to facilitate understanding? Or do you continue in willful unawareness of what she actually teaches because you don't want to fall under her discipline?
And if you would clarify for all of us, what or whom do you mean when you say "The Vatican"? What is your understanding of the concept of obedience? What place does it have in your practice of Roman Catholicism?
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