"I want to be judged as a journalist, not as a hostage. I remain as committed as ever to fairness and accuracy--to discovering the truth--and so I will not engage in polemics. But let me be clear: I abhor all who kidnap and murder civilians, and my captors are clearly guilty of both crimes."
This quote puzzles me.
You know what happned? The dad had a long talk with Jill on the phone and told her to pipe down.
You're right. It's inconsistent. Perhaps her statement reflects her worldview and her will to be known as a journalist, but when placed in a losing situation, became a hostage and threw truth out the window. Now that she is back in a free society, her will to control her future and have people perceive her as seeking and honestly reporting truth is manifest. The second statement indicates there was no love lost for her captors, but she's trying to ignore the soulish and spiritual connotations of her thinking and behavior and justify herself in her own eyes in a worldly system.
Ironically, if she is judged as a journalist, she's a loser. If she was judged as a hostage who now seeks to report on her experience, then she might have an opportunity again to truthfully report, albeit in a worldly system.
She is just saying she doesn't want to focus on the horrors she went through and instead have the focus on her reporting etc.