As an ex-druggie,I WILL speak from experience.
I DO remember my highs fondly but I wish today I had never touched any of that s---.It was a complete and utter waste of time and health and illegal on top of that.
And I've done my share of screwing around too,you can believe that.Remember those"pieces"fondly also but here I am 58 years old and as alienated and without a clue about woman as I was in Seventh Grade!
Sounds like you should get back on drugs.