You seem paranoid, freaked out, and angry.
I promise you, you can get yourself out of your depression.
Happiness and excitement, hardly any need for sleep, tremendous feeling of potency, conquered your depression, eh?
You won't believe me now, it is impossible for you to do so, but you may remember what I have said later. Best of luck to you.
"I promise you" indeed! Boy have I seen that stuff before!