Let me be frank.
IMHO, your posts demonstrate a naivete about the possibility of melding free human action with socialism in any guise.
To me, the clear evidence of history is that the state has the skills and power to kill and destroy, but not to nurture or create.
But that's okay - that's all I, as a conservative, can ask the state to do!
It's you guys who have the problem of reconciling the sordid realities of the human experience wth your 'ideals'.