If Ms Broaddrick had gone public when it happened then Clinton would NOT have been President or could Hillary become President. Had she NOT signed that paper, I bet Clinton would have been REMOVED after impeachment. Juanita Broaddrick has become one of the great "What ifs" of history ....
As for myself .... I got the restraining orders lifted .... went home .... won custody of then my 4 year old daughter (12 years ago). Yes it's icky but you have to face it head on.
By the way, I'm glad you got your daughter back. Try to learn more about what goes on in a woman's mind after being raped.