I understand you completely and I've felt all of thise same things.
If I'd ever had a child of my own, I swore that I would KILL anyone who touched her.
No family politics, no excuse-making, nothing.
Just a bullet between the eyes.
Amen. I know this sounds awful, but while I was pregnant, I was really hoping I was having a boy. I'm glad I have a little girl, but the thought that anything may happen to her makes me sick. But it's always there, in the back of my mind.