No condemnation here, Rose. You're among family. I reckon that many of us feel the same way as you. I cried almost nonstop every time I heard the anthem, including Sandi Patti's extended version, everytime I saw a flag, everytime I passed a firehouse, etc.
I remember sitting in my car a while afterwards, and listening to former football/baseball star Bo Jackson, whose career had ended years earlier because of a freakish hipe injury, saying on a sports show that if the President called him, he'd be on the next jet, ready to fly a missile up bin Laden's a**.
Virtual hug and kleenex to ya, and God's peace be with you.