My god! It scares me, while at the same time amazes me, that my thoughts are EXACTLY reflected in that post of yours! I've always wanted to ask the same to many a persons.
Pray, are you my doppelganger?
Nay, nay sirruh. I am that most feared of humans, a thoughtful, logical, questioning, human just as you apparently are. Besides I just like stirring the s**tpot periodically.
I can ask those questions because I believe in God and pray to Him at least twice a day, and rely upon Him for my very daily life.
I just know that he doesn't want blind obedience or slaves.
To all you Creationists out there...God gave you the brains (through evolution) try using them.