The question was asked: "How can you prevent another arrest for drunken driving?" I responded, "don't drink before driving." While that may minimmize one's risk, the ONLY way to actually prevent another such arrest: quit drinking.
I have not quit drinking. But I will not stand before a judge concerning alchohol again.
The thing that I took away from that legally required program was a sense of why do I drink, and why do I drink as much as I do when I drink? Secondly, what is wrong with feeling the way I do and why does that need to be "enhanced" or "diminished"? The latter are societal questions and gap mere alchohol consumption.
The movie "Days of Roses" w/Jack Lemmon is a movie that I most heartedly recommend viewing by everybody. It should be legally required viewing to be a person. It showed me where I was, who I was, and just how long things had been brewing (ha ha ha ha - bad joke).
I will be earnestly be praying for your mental well-being, and that the Comforter will be audible to you. I know one thing: this world is nothing but a veil of tears, and there's no hope but that Jesus saves (John 3:15; 6:47). I pray that you will be able to overcome your grief and see that light. I didn't come to the Lord because of what happened, I'm guilty of what I did despite my faith.
All that notwithstanding, there's nothing I can say (nor do) to fill that hole in your heart. But Jesus can perform miracles, and that will be my prayer: that its the Lord's will for to be healed; you've suffered a most grievous loss.