You don't have access to bomb-making materials I hope. :) You sound a little like a Christian jihadist.
Careful that evil has not poisoned you into believing that to die for Christ means taking thousands along with you in a ball of fire. The difference between an Islam jihadist and a true Christian is that in Islam one must kill others, namely non-believers, to see God, whereas, a true Christian is willing to give up his own life to save the life of another (remember "there is not greater gift").
It is always easy to see why Christ was so feared. It doesn't take a bomb, it only takes a "Word", or "Truth", maybe even raising someone from the dead that scares the living hell out of us.
But to be honest, I believe that the gift OBL has given to the world is exactly what evil wanted, to make everyone believe that any true relationship with God can only lead to a jihadist mentality. And therein lies the root to next great persecution.