I'm not making excuses, but over a long association you will encounter - you have encountered - some remarkably vicious stuff. I certainly did. There is more. There is a deep and powerful undercurrent that makes them Japanese, and the realization I reached in my time there is that there is an equally deep and powerful undercurrent that makes us Americans. And, if you will forgive me for getting all mystical about it, that these two deep undercurrents speak to each other, which accounts for our unique cultural relationship. It wasn't a Chinese or a Dutchman or a German or an Englishman who dragged them into the 19th century, it was an American who said "trade with us or we'll blow you up." Before Perry there was the Shogun and after him, battleships and the Tsushima straits, and all of a sudden Japan awakened to discover that it mattered. It is still trying to cope with that.
Best to you. Gan' batte, kudasai!
"Time to come up for air."
Yes, I'm going to return home very soon. Just trying to get my ducks in a row.
Sent several e-mails to employment agencies, "I'm moving to XXX and will be seeking employment. May I send you a resume?"
Not a single one of them even replied.