I'll bet you think your shiite don't stink, huh?
Your need, seems only to try and validate yourself!
I don't argue 'religion'... I discuss evidence of God! You, arguably, must not have much faith in any god, if you are unwilling to defend it.
I hope you enjoy a good life, because you must not believe in anything, to come after this one!
I sincerely hope you enjoy your afterlife more than you're enjoying your current situation.