In your present state of mind you serve neither yourself, or your country any useful purpose.
Bon voyage.
Wow.
"Hate" to tell you this -- although only because you're quite clearly too intellectually, emotionally, cognitively and spiritually immature to grasp it.
But no-one -- not even a Narcissist, such as you are appearing to be -- is capable of "feeling" another's emotions. Any and all hatred you feel and/or any other emotion that has penetrated your psychoses, along with any desire for "vengeance" -- and I of course believe you when you say you feel hatred and the need for the latter -- is your own.
And I in any case am full of joy -- and feel only love.
Including for you.
Blessings -- Brian
[And meanwhile permit me to refer you to:
http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/1402102/posts ;
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