"My own goal is to be prepared for the testing of my faith, and to be worthy of the martyrs who have gone before."
I don't know how old you are but I'll bet anyway that you are going to get your shot.
I have long since accepted that will get my own. Evil does indeed rule the world. God would have it no other way (I believe).
I'm 38. I expect a general persecution of Christians in the United States in my lifetime.