I wouldn't pretend to know, first, if that is really a fact and second, if it is a fact, why.
I don't know Michael, and have no idea how his brain functions, but I will guarantee this. He wishes he had taken a different road.
I have made many errors in this trek through life, regretted them and would hope to never make them again, but none were anything compared to this compilation of blunders.
I hear that, well said.