Here are a few more excerpts from his book (with page numbers)--
Felos, in his own words--
Check out his version of reality and wonder if it's safe to let this guy loose in a room with any disabled patient.
Emphasis and some paragraphing added for focus.
When describing the "cathartic releases" of "blocks of my unconscious past" from his body (20), Felos describes the process: "As these unprocessed experiences entered my throat, I often felt absolute, unimaginable terror-like I was being murdered, hacked to bits.
One time I could actually feel a long blade plunging into my chest; another time I could smell the dank, putrid odor of an attacker. Other dark cells brought on indescribably intense grief and its accompanying pain, as if a beloved child of mine were dying. ...
Although the passage of a cell through the throat seemed to take an eternity, in relative time, the process usually elapsed in less than fifteen minutes. Once the block was experienced and discharged, I often noticed a feeling of lightness, as if a dead weight had been lifted.
I also sensed an interior spaciousness, sometimes so vast, I felt as if I could rise like a helium balloon. Sometimes after a release I would feel a joy and peace, a homecoming, like the prodigal son returning to the abode of the Father after a long, wayward journey.....(20-21)
Chapter Five, "Death and Resurrection," describes Felos’ significant spiritual experience during a ten day retreat at the Kirpalu Center for Yoga and Health in Lenox, Mass., in April, 1988.
The experience "birthed a personal transformation of immense and unexpected proportions. . . .I came to the retreat in April, 1988, wanting a change in my life and was returning home with my old life vaporized."(47)
Described as "a superconscious experience," Felos writes, "I was drunk with God" resulting in the inability to walk on his own without the assistance of others.(49)
Felos became consumed with yoga and meditation following his retreat, including three or four hours per day to the point that his wife and those close to him were "disturbed by and concerned with my abrupt and radical change and believed I was close to becoming nonfunctional."(55)
As proof of the existence of "soul-speak," as he calls it, Felos cites an incident with his wife years before concerning their yet-to-be-conceived, unborn son. At this time there was disagreement between he and his wife about whether they should have children.
One day at his office, Felos was "hammerstuck. While almost seeing stars like a comic book character, I heard the soul of my yet-to-be-conceived child emphatically shout: ‘I’m ready to be born. . .will you stop this fooling around!’--The voice I heard was distinctly male, and I beamed with the idea I had a son--or was going to have a son--or sorta had a son out there--or something like that." (75)
In a discussion of the "cosmic law of cause and effect," Felos argues that we create our own physical realities with our mind. Felos illustrates this power in his own life by describing an incident while on a plane during a time when he was engaged in a "right-to-die" case and had become very involved in the hospice movement.
He pondered, "I wonder what it would be like to die right now?" and "indulged the thought by imagining the plane starting to lose it trajectory and descend." The plane did, creating chaos in the cabin as people began to realize the plane was going to crash.
"Needless to say, the juxtaposition of my imagined death and the possibility of a real demise heightened for me my different reactions. I assure you, my hubris in assuming that I would meet a life-ending crash with equanimity was not lost on me."(181-182)
The pilot later explained to the passengers that there was an unexplained problem with the auto pilot which caused the momentary descent. "At that instant a clear, distinctly independent and slightly stern voice said to me, ‘Be careful what you think. You are more powerful than you realize.’
In quick succession I was startled, humbled and blessed by God’s admonishment."(182)
DOES this monster have children?
This guy was left alone in Terri's room for 90 minutes? You have to be kidding!
When describing the "cathartic releases" of "blocks of my unconscious past" from his body (20), Felos describes the process: "As these unprocessed experiences entered my throat, I often felt absolute, unimaginable terror-like I was being murdered, hacked to bits.
Years ago, a woman with whom I worked, who was a practitioner of zen buddhism, ... described dreams she was having which were just like this (i.e. being chopped to bits).