Having been in recovery for a number of years, I've come into contact with many that sound like they would experience "a rush" such as that and when it was over didn't know how to get it back..... Drugs and alchohol were unfortunately the avenue many followed... hope that was not the case in your life...
catch up later, off to mom's with my boys...
Absolutely not. But yes, I can see how easily that can happen.
It is very difficult. If one is so totally worked up on adrenaline for several years and suddenly the bottom drops out because everything goes back to a normal boring day, this is very difficult. Substance abuse did not inter into the picture since I never had and do not have interest in it (in other words, I have never tried and have no interest in drugs). I can’t explain it other than one learns to live with a very dull life compared to the previous. One just occupies ones’ mind with other things. It sounds corny, but that is all the personal advice I can share. I kept asking myself, “how was it before all this stared?” My comment was always, “In acomparison, kind of dull compared to those years leading up to 1899.” Does that help? Probably not because it is a personal healing.