I'm sorry for your losses, thank you for posting your story.
As for Rush, he wasn't talking about people like you, but people who DID pull the plug for selfish reasons, and now find themselves very troubled.
[people like you, but people who DID pull the plug ]
That's what's so frustrating about the Terri Schiavo discussion in the MSM. People keep talking about Terri's wish not to be kept alive by machines. Our family "pulled the plug" on my grandmother two years ago. My grandmother literally couldn't live without the ventilator, and had made us promise many times not to let her live like that. She made us promise that we would just let her go. Most of us have expressed the same sentiment, but I'll bet Terri Schiavo never meant that she wanted to have a feeding tube pulled so that she could dehydrate and starve to death. This is not a "pulling the plug" scenario that the average person thinks of.