> So you reject the Christ of the cross who loved you because of absurd people in your past, people like me, and getting kicked out of Sunday School?
It was a big push in the right direction. The enforced silliness opened my eyes, and reason took me the rest of the way.
Approach any study of Scripture with the same intellect with which you would study science, and not with emotion.
The Word of God can withstand any intellectual assault you can give it (after all, it is God who gave you your keen mind, and He wants us to worship Him with our minds, as well as our spirits).
Read it openly (no emotional baggage), and see if it doesn't make sense to you. There may be seeming inconsistencies at first glance, but if you grapple with them, you will see what's really being said.
Keeping in mind, of course that people have been studying God's word for centuries, and have come up with many shades of interpretation........but the essence of its truth is there to anyone who honestly looks.
It contains no errors. Only we do.
Try the book of John. Or Romans........it's incredibly deep and complex intellectually.