Weighing on his conscience?
NOPE...it's not conscience, it's UBRIS.
Here's how it works:
1- You're born privileged and unloved. Mom and Daddy are too busy being socialites (and socialists)so..
2- They send you to special schools in Switzweland and you're still desperately unloved but believing that you are special. You got to find a way to think you are superior because inside you feel like s..t.
3- You try to get attention, so "Please. please, will someone look at me and love me." To do that you have to sway to the wind of those that surround you...you learn flip-flop is the way to go...talk a lot but say nothing.
4- You go to Yale another special school but rather than partying a la Bush, the "inadequate YOU" cannot let go. Still trying to get love by impressing others...grades are not even as good as "despised party boy" but you still think you are better.
5- No deferment and you're stuck going to Nam.
6- You don't fit. To lead men in battle, you must love them. Still inadequate, cannot bond, you peers and your superiors know you are phony. They reject you after 4 months. You couldn't wait to get out of there.
7- You get back at them, because they didn't love you either. Call them criminals.
8- Become special again, marry rich. Again and again. Fake love, Fake superiority.
9- Must show power, depth, and be ponderous as a politician.
Make up stories to impress. No substance. No achievements. You still know you are hollow.
10- Circumstances (Dean implosion) land you in the "Most powerful man in the world" race. Why don't they love me, please, love me. Flip-flop. Still Hollow.
Now the lies will catch up and they will all know..He is hollow. You must be terribly afraid and thrash in the night...It's not your conscience, it's your UBRIS!
Great post, but now you've made me feel sad tor the guy...