I want to close with you on a very honest note.
You are one sick puppy!
If my rejection of your love causes you to wish -- even for a moment -- that I drop dead, get sick with cancer and die, or be left alone to fight with Arabs who hate me, then you have more problems than you acknowledge.
You think that you are preaching love, but I think that you are sublimating your hatred and anger (I am not a doctor, but I did stay at a Holiday Inn Express last night).
You will think that this is sarcastic or mean, but I mean it honestly and sincerely: you should seek professional help.
Wrong most people Lie, I am brutally honest, I said if I didn't let the spirit of GOD into my life then as a human being I could be filled or consumed with HATE many people can...I don't wish those things upon you but I don't put it past my self that I could feel that way if I I pushed GOD or prayer out of my life. It is prayer and GOD who makes me the person I am..
Sorry if you can't handle brutal honesty. Most people can't.