I am ready to meet my judgement.
You perform self-exposure just fine on your own. Your bias has you blind to your dishonesty. It's so transparent.
Sure. Guys like you are NEVER around when the butcher's bill comes due. Just like other fanatics...like Arafat, bin Laden, etc...somehow, when the battle starts, they dissappear and send others to die or be killed.
Sell it to someone else.