I have known several "straight" men who've been more than willing to experiment with other men when they are drunk too.....so I guess this goes both ways.
I actually don't think you are homophobic, and I appreciate your post. I don't, however, think you truly understand what being gay is like. I may CHOOSE my partner, but I don't choose what attracts me. When I'm walking down the street and I see a hot guy, I'm not thinking about making a choice to look at him instead of the big breasted woman beside him......I'm just responding to my instincts.
I'm just responding to my instincts.
Apparently you have been socialized to see yourself as the helpless victim of forces beyond your control.
There is little I can do to help you except to reaffirm the possibility of your exercising free will and self-control.
If you believe that you're helpless, then you are.
Psychology studies have also shown that when a child is molested physically or emotionally by a same sex authority figure that that sexuality becomes "programed" into the child as normal, or that the child is trained to think that it is normal, thereby becoming physically attracted to the same sex.
Quite a circle you're running with.