I'm not saying she should not talk but she can't turn back the clock on her own life. She almost sounds like she wishes she had not been born.
That sounds much more preachy than I'd like, but I can't seem to reword it so it makes sense. Please take it in the spirit offered: as a comment from someone who is currently trying to make sense of something she wish hadn't been.
She Wishes she had a REAL "Dad!!"
There is a Genetic Program in Humans that REQUIRES the "Input" of BOTH Male & Female (OR, if You Prefer, Both Female & Male) to produce a Stable "Human Being."
Despite Tens of Thousands of years of "Experimentation," we Have YET to find a "Substitute" for this Recipe.
Some Traits are "Hard-Wired" into our Species; "Mom & Dad" are among them.
Doc
Perhaps she does feel that way, and if so, hopefully will find a healthy way to deal with those feelings and go forward to a productive life in spite of it.
I don't know about you, but I found it difficult enough growing up with more "typical" strikes against me...like divorced parents. I am very thankful I didn't have to deal with this kind of psychic and emotional albatross.