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I'd Leave the Country, but My Wife Won't Let Me Bush Takes Aim at My American Family
TheVillageVoice ^ | March 3 - 9, 2004 | Laura Conaway

Posted on 03/04/2004 5:12:03 PM PST by fight_truth_decay

"I've fantasized about leaving this country since I was 12 years old, but never more desperately than last Tuesday, when the president announced that my gay family should be banned by the U.S. Constitution. Suddenly, expatriation stopped being about wool berets and red wine at lunch. My loved ones and I were standing at the wrong end of a government's gun—not literally, of course, but in a way that threatens our deepest understanding of our lives. Our hopes for a happy, loving, ordinary marriage had become a national threat. George Bush had called for an amendment against same-sex marriage.

"Can we just go to Canada now?" I asked my wife, knowing the answer. We argue remarkably little for people who have a toddler and spend every possible moment together. Except we do have this one running debate at the breakfast table, which starts with me saying we could get legally married, right now, north of the border. Sarah holds up the weather page and says, "Hey, that cold air out there? It came from Canada, and it got warmer on the way."

It's warm in Vancouver, I say.

And we could be freer there. But she's not going, for reasons beyond the mercury. She wants to live as an American—more specifically, as a New Yorker—regardless of whether this America wants her. She wants our son to grow up an American, even if it means he'll lack the protections of the kid next door. Being American matters to her, and that means it matters to me. Four years ago this fall, we stood before an Episcopal priest and were pronounced married for life, for better, for worse. "Those whom God has joined together," the priest warned, "let no one put asunder." I won't leave her, Mr. Bush, not even on account of you.

But, oh, the siren call of liberty. Blame my parents for making me rootless by moving too often. Blame me for believing any place with equal rights and a bookstore is good enough. I can accept exile, but I cannot accept less than fair. I want to be a full citizen, with this woman, today. I want to do whatever it takes, sacrifice whatever is necessary, go wherever I have to, for that to be so.

I want to be taxed equally. I want my Social Security benefits to go somewhere besides down the drain. I want the Fifth Amendment right not to testify against Sarah, and to protect our private correspondence from subpoena, the same as other spouses. Couples like us don't have that right. Surprised? Rosie O'Donnell and her wife were, when the lawyers came after them.

I want our politicians and religious leaders to stop going on television and suggesting that legalizing marriage for us would be like legalizing sex with dogs. My wife, in my arms? They are talking about my wife, in my arms. Do they know, do they care, how much that hurts? Where must we run to be safe from them?

I want my wife not to feel such pressure and fear that she curls up in bed at night and cries. On the night of Wednesday, February 25, a woman in Brooklyn lay crying because she can't understand why people would hate her so, why they'd have to denigrate a beautiful and private part of her life with the most heinous rhetoric. Think about that. My wife lay in tears because strangers are clamoring for the power to decide whether she belongs, whether the American promise should hold true for her—as if there were any question which way they'd vote.

What stands between us and them? A couple dozen senators, and some of those are on the fence. Where is our right to a meaningful marriage, to the honest pursuit of happiness? We want our justice and "domestic tranquility." Whose country is this, anymore? Someone tell me. I get the feeling it's no longer mine.

For me, one of parenting's most profound lessons is that I am supposed to take care of Sarah and the baby, collectively, as a unit. It's not like she's a helpless damsel and I'm a butch knight—if anyone's the tough guy around here, it's her. Rather, I believe all mothers need protecting so they can get on with the open-hearted business of mothering. What works for me is to have Sarah come first, and with Sarah comes the baby. If there are two seats on the life raft, I'm drowning. House fire, I'm first in for the kid. Not enough food, I'm hungry, not her and not him.

Now comes an enemy who outweighs me, outnumbers me, corners me at will. And you know how I can really tell I'm overmatched? I wish it away. I say to Sarah, they'll never get this marriage amendment out of the Senate. They may get it out of the House, but never the Senate. This blustering of mine is worth only so much. We each know the amendment would likely pass in the states—it would need approval from 38, and that many already have statutes against gay marriage. Would Sarah leave then? She says maybe.

I look for example to older African Americans, though many of them don't want us, either. Not wanting to offend, I silently think of the children marching into the fire hoses of Birmingham, the adults who sat at segregated lunch counters while mobs poured ketchup on their heads. Some mothers and fathers back then asked their kids to be first through the schoolhouse door, rocks and bullets and all. Others left for the relative tolerance up North in places like Chicago and Harlem, unwilling to make an existence of waiting. I know what's happening to us isn't the same as that, exactly, but it requires of me the same kind of courage. You just hope the breakthrough happens in your lifetime.

The privacy of this struggle may be the worst part, the continued aloneness of being. So many people don't get it. They say things to us like "Being married isn't all it's cracked up to be"—as if we weren't religiously married already, as if being blocked from the city clerk's door were great fun. They say, "Wouldn't civil unions be enough?" or, now that gay couples are marrying out West, "I'd hate for this marriage thing to win Bush the election." They say, "You really have to pay taxes like that?" and "Being domestic partners doesn't help you?" and "You should see the marriage penalty we pay." They say, "Oh, I wish it were different for you." They say, "Come to our wedding! We're getting married!"

Sometimes I think the greatest hindrance to our cause is the sheer force of the American legend. So strongly do people believe this country stands for freedom that they can't fathom it's ever otherwise. Sign a few contracts, the well-intentioned advise, and you'll get all the same rights as straight couples—that's an outrageous fiction, but not as outrageous as the notion that being almost equal under the law is good enough.

For now, we can't get even that far, with leaders like Bush smirking at this thing Sarah and I call marriage. Should he need proof of the moral weight of our vows, I'd ask him to consider this: If it weren't for the true marriage I'm in, and the needs of the wife I've pledged to love, I would flee this America to fulfill my own dream of equality. Instead, with no small sum of fear, I will stay with her and fight.


TOPICS: Business/Economy; Constitution/Conservatism; Crime/Corruption; Culture/Society; Editorial; Government; News/Current Events; Politics/Elections; US: California; US: Massachusetts; US: New York; US: Oregon
KEYWORDS: civilunion; goodridance; homosexualagenda; marriage; villagevoice
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To: squidly
I quit reading during the first sentence, where it stated "the president announced that my gay family should be banned by the U.S. Constitution". What a load of crap. They'll be living together the same way they have been.

I made it to the second sentence---something about wearing wool berets and sipping red wine.

61 posted on 03/04/2004 6:04:36 PM PST by gg188
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To: tuckrdout
"I want our politicians and religious leaders to stop going on television and suggesting that legalizing marriage for us would be like legalizing sex with dogs.

Hey, one dysfunctional sex fetish is no better than any other dysfunctional sex fetish. She's such a hate filled beastaphobe !!! Where's her tolerance for people just like her?

62 posted on 03/04/2004 6:06:05 PM PST by concerned about politics ( Liberals are still stuck at the bottom of Maslow's Hierarchy)
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To: fight_truth_decay
Good bye. Go to France. I'm sure once the Muslims take over your "family" will have to make another choice.
63 posted on 03/04/2004 6:08:19 PM PST by Dallas59
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To: Eala
God doesn't join faggots together. Vasoline does.
64 posted on 03/04/2004 6:08:23 PM PST by philetus (Keep doing what you always do and you'll keep getting what you always get)
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To: fight_truth_decay
I just couldn't read past the first few paragraphs. Sorry, this is sick.
65 posted on 03/04/2004 6:10:58 PM PST by sneakers
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To: fight_truth_decay
I hear France is really nice this time of the year...
66 posted on 03/04/2004 6:16:30 PM PST by RWR8189 (Its Morning in America Again!)
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To: fight_truth_decay
"the president announced that my gay family should be banned by the U.S. Constitution."

Drama QUEEN....queer....er....KING?

67 posted on 03/04/2004 6:18:19 PM PST by goodnesswins (Dedicated to Mel Gibson - my new idol)
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To: millefleur
"that ain't no marriage and you ain't no husband... and it wasn't God who "joined" you."

I felt the same way. And I am "hurt" that they get the right to say that FATHERS are so insignificant that they simply are not needed! That a kid is just as well off having two mothers, than a mother and a father.

These homosexuals are taking aim at ALL our families. They are firing a shot. We have to fire back. We have to fight and win this battle!

68 posted on 03/04/2004 6:19:48 PM PST by tuckrdout (Terri Schindler (Schiavo) deserves to have her wishes honored: Give her a DIVORCE!)
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To: concerned about politics
The issue is NOT "marriage". The issue is the destruction of the foundation of our society. It is the forced removal of our traditions and heritage. This is an attempt to further cause chaos to society. To corrupt our children, and leave us weak. Immorality rots a nation from within, leaving it open to easy overthrow.

Homosexual behavior is a moral issue, just as promiscuity and adultery are. Religions have the right and responisibility to condemn immorallity. For the government to all of a sudden approve of immoral behavior...to make a MORAL judgment and actually legalize immorality, this act would take way our freedom of Religion. This would establish a religious opinion by the government and would PROHIBIT THE FREE EXORCISE of religion...our first guarantee of freedom! To pass a homosexual marriage law, is tandamount to taking away our freedoms of speech and religion.

http://www.equality.org.za/news/2002/12/30xtain.htm
69 posted on 03/04/2004 6:22:14 PM PST by tuckrdout (Terri Schindler (Schiavo) deserves to have her wishes honored: Give her a DIVORCE!)
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To: fight_truth_decay
Four years ago this fall, we stood before an Episcopal priest and were pronounced
married for life, for better, for worse.


With all apologies to the remaining rational Episcopalians...
THANK YOU G-D, for the ending of my relationship with a potential wife who I'd
probably have followed into the Episcopalian fold!

Sorry...it's just that the break-up was unpleasant. But as in the case of Joseph's travails,
"G-d meant it for good".
70 posted on 03/04/2004 6:23:09 PM PST by VOA
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To: tuckrdout
The issue is NOT "marriage". The issue is the destruction of the foundation of our society. It is the forced removal of our traditions and heritage. This is an attempt to further cause chaos to society. To corrupt our children, and leave us weak. Immorality rots a nation from within, leaving it open to easy overthrow.

Yep. The communist warned us after WWII they'd destroy our society from within and rebuild it in their image.

71 posted on 03/04/2004 6:27:02 PM PST by concerned about politics ( Liberals are still stuck at the bottom of Maslow's Hierarchy)
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To: fight_truth_decay
Preview of life for a son with "two mommies":

One girl was called Jean Marie
Another little girl was Felicity
Another little girl was Sally Joy
The other was me, and I'm a boy

My name is Bill, and I'm a head case
They practice making up on my face
Yeah, I feel lucky if I get trousers to wear
Spend evenings taking hairpins from my hair

chorus: I'm a boy, I'm a boy
But my ma won't admit it
I'm a boy, I'm a boy
But if I say I am, I get it

Put your frock on, Jean Marie
Plait your hair, Felicity
Paint your nails, little Sally Joy
Put this wig on, little boy

chorus

Wanna play cricket on the green
Ride my bike across the street
Cut myself and see my blood
Wanna come home all covered in mud

chorus

"I'm a Boy", by The Who

72 posted on 03/04/2004 6:29:28 PM PST by DuncanWaring (...and Freedom tastes of Reality)
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To: fight_truth_decay
From the article.... "I've fantasized about leaving this country since I was 12 years old,

Good news. We're you're friends...and we're here to help you pack.

73 posted on 03/04/2004 6:39:49 PM PST by Right_in_Virginia
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To: fight_truth_decay
"I've fantasized about leaving this country since I was 12 years old

Live the dream, man, live the dream...

74 posted on 03/04/2004 6:45:18 PM PST by jscd3
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To: Liberty Valance
Twinks unite. Emulate Lemmings....please.
75 posted on 03/04/2004 6:45:26 PM PST by HardStarboard ( Wesley...gone. Hillary......not gone enough!)
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To: fight_truth_decay
Four years ago this fall, we stood before an Episcopal priest and were pronounced married for life, for better, for worse. "Those whom God has joined together," the priest warned, "let no one put asunder."

Given that this was an Episcopal priest, one has to ask whether he was referring to a divine God, a didactic God or merely God as a John Shelby Spongian unifying social construct.

76 posted on 03/04/2004 6:46:49 PM PST by Huber (FReepers eat marginalization and ostracism for breakfast!)
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To: millefleur

Hell should have a special Roasting Room for Episcopal priests who have offended God in this hideous way. They encourage these obviously mentally ill people in their sin.
77 posted on 03/04/2004 6:51:21 PM PST by kittymyrib
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To: fight_truth_decay
I want to be taxed equally.
 
Who wants to explain this?
78 posted on 03/04/2004 6:54:59 PM PST by quantim (Victory is not relative, it is absolute.)
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To: fight_truth_decay
"Being married isn't all it's cracked up to be"

Yeah, especially if that's all there is.

79 posted on 03/04/2004 6:55:44 PM PST by TADSLOS (Right Wing Infidel since 1954)
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To: quantim
I want my Social Security benefits to go somewhere besides down the drain

Where should we start?

80 posted on 03/04/2004 6:58:54 PM PST by fight_truth_decay
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