MCH----There are other Catholics who post on FR who are scholars and can give you chapter and verse of apologies. I don't have my head in the sand. I am a student of the foibles, sins and hate perpetrated by people in the Catholic faith in our 2,000 year history. I have just finished reading Conversos, Inquisition, and the Expulsion of the Jews from Spain by Norman Roth. I have also read an older book, Torquemada by Sabatini and other works critical of the actions of people in the Church.
I don't have a quarrel with your questions and difficulty with Catholicism.....just the tone and underlying animosity that permeates your posts.
I wish I could remember the quote from St. Augustine.....but it has something to do with the purity of a sacrament not being diminshed by the sins of the person administering it.
If you think of truth as sunlight, it is not diminished just because we view it through a grimy window.
Pax.
I'll pray for you. I hope you will pray for me.