[Marysecretary]

Me, too. Three great sons and 10 grandchildren. I still love the big lug even after 20 years of divorce (after 25 years of rocky, alcoholic marriage) and his death in 1990. I can't ever forget him and what he meant to me when we first met. My sons are a huge part of my life. I will never regret having married him and having his children. My current husband loves ME, not the alcohol and the women that came along with that lifestyle. I have security and love and it's envious to many who see it. But I still have a place in my heart for No. 1 husband. Strange, isn't it?

[stylin_geek]

Which is why, as bad as my marriage was, and as lousy a wife the ex was, even if I could, I would not change what happened, as I could not stand to lose my children.