When I first crashed, I was a baby Christian and asked my friend who had helped me accept God what was going on. He told me to read the first chapters of Job. The first chapters were very enlightening yet I continued and finished the whole book. In the end, my conclusion was I was now on one wild ride and I needed to learn how to trust God through whatever happened and not turn my back on Him again. Even though it was an incredibly painful time, it was also a time of His healing and care. The memories of how He took care of so many problems simply out of my control fills me with more love and trust for Him than I can ever express.
My greatest joy is talking about my Lord and God! I'm just in heaven right now! :o)