[SerpentDove]

I would like to know too...(depression)

THX

SD

[cyborg]

Depression has some common symptoms, but the experience can be very personal and feel different to everyone. I used to feel like I was in a nightmare. Oh yeah, watch What Dreams May Come. The whole montage of his wife in hell is how I USED to feel.

[null and void]

I would like to know too...(depression)

It's like Kansas, all shades of gray, while knowing that there is an Emerald City that you can see but never visit.

It's a physical weight tied to every atom of your body

A sense of an endless walk across a parched desert going from nowhere to nowhere else.

Knowing you are stuck in a trap that no one (not even you) can see.

It's an unfillable bottomless pit in your very soul.

Breathing takes effort, yet doesn't seem to provide oxygen.

Imagine a fish suffocating in freefall. No matter how much trashing and flipping the fish attempts to do it slowly succumbs.

It's a bit like all of that at once.

[Celtic Conservative]

It is a bit difficult but i'll try . It began shortly after I got married . i got bored with the things I liked to do . soon this became a general withdrawal from social activities and hobbies. what interactions i did have were often marked by anger and sarcasm. I often used inappropriate humor and mean spirited sarcasm to express myself. I began to witdraw from everybody,including My wife. I slept for days . My work began to suffer. when i did force Myself to function i began to have anxiety attacks. Between My inattention and sullen nature My marriage began to suffer too.I got despondent, and began to wonder what "the other side" was like. finally my wife left Me briefly. It scared Me enough to got to a counselor. He helped me to get perspective on what was going on. My wife loves me and i thought Her leaving Me was abandonment. She didn't know how to help me and didn't want to watch Me self destruct. She , also discovered before I did that I had to decide to live on My own, she couldn't do it for me. I took prozac for a short period (3 months). My counselor also discovered that I had ADD. There are some here that don't believe in that, And I won't revisit that argument here. For me it is real and with a small dosage of stimulants and new communication and coping skills i now have a LIFE. My wife and I are together and doing well. I wont say it's easy every day, but I know how to deal with it now and keep perspective. i also decided to give up on a few grudges I found I held against God. It's much better now, and I work hard to keep that perspective i've gained. cyborg its right it is a fairly intense mind game.

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CC