Freeper Obit. TrappedInLiberalHell

12-12-03 | EA

[EggsAckley]

I'm sorry to have to report that one of our own Freepers, TrappedInLiberalHell, has passed away. His profile is HERE

I met Chris this past summer and found him to be a brilliant young man, who unfortunately carried around a lot of painful psychological troubles. He wrote few posts here, but was an active and clever noter, and a very sweet young man.

R.I.P., Chris van Loon
b. 3/2/72, d. 12/9/03

[DollyCali]

I would hope that a divine prompting would come and stop me from hitting POST below the scathing words that would lethally wound someone to the heart.

We'll have JimRob work on that , okay?

*g*

{{{ChemistCat}}}

NOW I REALLY HAVE TO COOK

[EggsAckley]

Extremely well said!! And yes, Chris IS here in spirit. I can feel it. He would be extremely interested in this thread.

Thank you.

[proud American in Canada]

"On a lighter note... Someone earlier made the typo "I really licked Chris". (liked) He would have laughed probably. And wouldnt mind if we did.

To whoever made the typo, thanks i needed that."


I noticed that typo too but I didn't say anything...

but you're right, Chris would have laughed and probably licked it too. ;) :)

[EggsAckley]

Extremely well said!! And yes, Chris IS here in spirit. I can feel it. He would be extremely interested in this thread.

Thank you.

[EggsAckley]

Ooops. Getting very tired. Sorry for the double bubble.

[cyborg]

My wonderful companion is from South Africa, and he has regaled me with enough stories about Victoria Falls to give me the will to live for the rest of my life. I've met so many people infused with a zest for LIFE and LIVING in real life and on the Internet.

FReepers never die. If I ever died, I'd be happy knowing I can come back and haunt Bill Clinton with erectile dysfunction.

[mombonn]

I read this early this afternoon, and am so sad to learn of his death. I read many threads to which I do not reply, and very much appreciated TrappedInLiberalHell, though I probably never expressed that to him.

Condolences to his family and friends. May the Lord grant them the peace that passes all understanding.

[ChemistCat]

Someone was asking what depression is like.

I really believe it is or is LIKE a form of demonic possession. Depression defends itself. The pain is so great that you would do anything to make it stop--yet, you resist proven remedies. You don't WANT to feel better; you resist all hope that is offered. You deny anything will help, you say "No, that won't work" to every suggestion. You don't want to stay on meds, you don't want to quit using alcohol (which exacerbates depression)--you make excuses and use anger and sarcasm to drive the solicitous, caring, and nurturing people away, even as your soul cries inside for that healing.

If that isn't like being possessed I don't know what is. When we get bronchitis we rarely say "No, I won't take antibiotics to drive off the infection." But when we're depressed we resist going to the doctor who can usually provide a neurochemical way to make it better...or we resist healing through our faith, etc. You can hop on the train, instead of standing in front of it...both change your life, but if you stand in front of it, you can never undo it.

It's not scientific--scientific approaches to depression have their place. The brain literally works differently when in a depressed state. Blood flow and electrical activity is markedly different in the depressed brain versus the non-depressed, and chronic depression causes physical changes in the brain.

But I still believe that there is evil at work in this. I've experienced it, and seen it in others. People are doing things they KNOW make the pain or self-loathing worse, and they won't quit.

[null and void]

Wow. Your words gave me a chill to the heart.

You understand, then.

[proud American in Canada]

"I am overwhelmed by the responses to this thread, and I hope that next time there is a silly flame war going on, we will remember Chris and this thread. I am sick to death of the sniping and viciousness of some on this forum.

What a wonderful wake this has been today; a wonderful memorial to a remarkable young FRiend, not just to me, but to all of us."


Yes, it has been a wonderful wake for a FRiend who will be missed.

Anyway, based on this thread's longevity and substance, I truly believe that our FRiend Chris is still Freeping! :)

Thank you so much for letting us know, by the way.

There have been other occasions where we have lost "one of our own," and have grieved...

But these circumstances are different, because his posts alternate between complete hilarity and very serious soul-baring.

For some reason, this reminds me of when I had my two children. When they were just a day or two old, I had the weird feeling that their hold on life was tenuous, and that they could be taken away from me at any moment.

I do believe it's the same with people who have recently passed over. And that's one reason why we dream so vividly of the recently departed.

Anyway, all this to say that I think that somehow Chris is aware of all this furious posting... :) Like I said, he's still Freeping. :)

boy can I be longwinded sometimes! :( sorry..

[katnip]

I have learned that suicidal thoughts are prompted by evil (the dark side, etc.), and they are not easy to resist...

Thank you for your beautiful post.

On December 15, 1986 my only brother killed himself. He was 28 years old. It devastated my family. I don't think anything else has happened in my life that has affected me more.

The sadness is sometimes nearly unbearable. But it is very very important for survivors to know that it is evil that causes people to do this. Evil that hates goodness and hope. Not you! And you most likely would not have been able to stop it.

My husband often makes fun of my addiction to Free Republic and calls you all my "imaginary friends". But you know, I had a huge lump in my throat all day and sobbed all the way home because this wonderful young man was damaged so badly. He's not imaginary to me at all.

[rwfromkansas]

How very sad......I saw a few of his posts.

Great guy.

How very very very sad.

A big loss.

[M Kehoe]

I ask the Lord to comfort Chris's family in their time of sorrow. Amen.

5.56mm

[Celtic Conservative]

It is a bit difficult but i'll try . It began shortly after I got married . i got bored with the things I liked to do . soon this became a general withdrawal from social activities and hobbies. what interactions i did have were often marked by anger and sarcasm. I often used inappropriate humor and mean spirited sarcasm to express myself. I began to witdraw from everybody,including My wife. I slept for days . My work began to suffer. when i did force Myself to function i began to have anxiety attacks. Between My inattention and sullen nature My marriage began to suffer too.I got despondent, and began to wonder what "the other side" was like. finally my wife left Me briefly. It scared Me enough to got to a counselor. He helped me to get perspective on what was going on. My wife loves me and i thought Her leaving Me was abandonment. She didn't know how to help me and didn't want to watch Me self destruct. She , also discovered before I did that I had to decide to live on My own, she couldn't do it for me. I took prozac for a short period (3 months). My counselor also discovered that I had ADD. There are some here that don't believe in that, And I won't revisit that argument here. For me it is real and with a small dosage of stimulants and new communication and coping skills i now have a LIFE. My wife and I are together and doing well. I wont say it's easy every day, but I know how to deal with it now and keep perspective. i also decided to give up on a few grudges I found I held against God. It's much better now, and I work hard to keep that perspective i've gained. cyborg its right it is a fairly intense mind game.

fyi

CC

[rwfromkansas]

Very sad indeed.

A great person. Really awesome.

Too bad we could not have helped him.....I will say it again.

[Dysart]

FReepers never die. If I ever died, I'd be happy knowing I can come back and haunt Bill Clinton with erectile "dysfunction."


Possibly the greatest words ever scribed on FR! Brilliant.

[proud American in Canada]

"Every Freeper here thought highly of this young man...as evidenced by his posts and replies. He will be missed badly. I am heartbroken at his passing."


Thank you for such a well-said, so very true statement. We all are.


bump. :)

[Rightly Biased]

I remember him and his thoughts here will be missed Prayers for "peace that passes understanding" for his Family.
RB <><

[cyborg]

Thank you. Thank you very much LOL

[Fangorn]

I do. Fully. It's when you can come home from your kid's school play, having sat for an hour, beaming at them with pride, and after the house gets quiet, you sit there, the "walls of your bower closing in", and take out the gun, and just weigh it in your hands.

You write your own obituary in your head.

It's like drowning in an inch of water. At any point you can just pull your face up, but you don't, and you don't want anyone else to either.