Hunting for me has never been about "proving my manhood" or relishing in the killing of some creature. In some ways it's more about being interconnected with the process of nature. In a way hunting has always been more of a humbling experience for me, and whether or not something is killed is incidental.
I view man's role as steward of the earth, and I think as a hunter I'm taking additional responsibility for that. I'm saying that I'm going play an active role in the chain of life. I won't rely solely on strangers at some Kansas factory to do my killing, I'll use my own hands and my own tools. I know you don't dispute that some of the animals are going to die, hunters or no. And you seem to hold only the motives of the hunters in contempt, but I don't think your blanket statement applies to me or the people like me, and you don't really leave room for that.
I moved to NJ a few weeks ago, and didn't participate in the Bear hunt but I will next year. Not because of some self congratulatory fantasy that you seem to think applies to all hunters, but because I enjoy the outdoors and it's part of my responsibility.
And if I get a Bear, then I'll use all of it that I can. I won't disrespect it by wasting it. That's what conservation means.
I'm sorry that your personal hunting experience had to be so negative. I hope you can get to a point where it's less of an issue for you and you can see it more the way I do. Not enjoying hunting was never supposed to mean that you weren't a "real Man" in spite of what you seem to have been told.