Ok... signs of someone terribly confused. "I would prefer a universe with a deity" "I am not an atheist" "I do not have a god"
So basically you're saying you have no clue.
Yes, that's about the size of it. That is the position of the agnostic. An atheist claims to know. This is false- he cannot know. A person who claims to know there is a god- this is fair enough, I will not disagree with him that he knows of God or a god. But to this point in my life, I have no evidence that I find acceptable to convince me of the same.
Problem?