There's a good chance you hallucinated this week without ever knowing it

Inverse ^ | October 11, 2019 | By Jack Barton on

[Tax-chick]

I was exercising. Next I’ll take a shower.

We don’t think you’re judgmental.

[Monkey Face]

That’s very reassuring! Thanks!

I’m glad tomorrow is my “short” wash day, because then I can go to Walmart early!

Wednesday is the CT scan, and I’m not looking forward to it. I refused the MRI because I have to be so heavily sedated to undergo that stuff. If this is anything like that, it’s not going to happen. The older I get, the worse my claustrophobia gets.

[Tax-chick]

We think you’re observant. An observant person says, “Those people are funny!” A judgmental person says, “Those people aren’t nearly as good as wonderful me! How dare they exist!”

Sunny morning here. The cats are happy. The teenagers are still sleeping.

[Monkey Face]

Almost two months in, and I’m still having trouble adjusting to the later schedule. I’m still confused about what time I should start getting ready, so that I’m either rushed to get out the door or have half an hour to kill.

It’s hard because the longer I’m up, the harder it is to get motivated, so that right now, I don’t want to go. I felt not-too-bad when I woke up, but now, it’s like nap-time. Only, it can’t be nap-time if I’m going to church because I have to get ready, shortly. *sigh*

The problem, I think, is that I haven’t been able to get some uninterrupted rest during this last week. It seems I wake up 2-4 hours in and can’t go back to sleep, but I still get up by 0300 or sooner because I get cold.

I’d probably better stay home.

[Tax-chick]

You have to do what’s best for your health and safety!

[Monkey Face]

This is true. I keep telling people that I have to choose my battles because CFIDS won’t let me fight them all. If I want to do that, I have to forego doing this. If I want to go there at that time, I have to stay here at this time. It hasn’t been easy to adjust to, but the supplements have helped.

And there are people who have no idea how hard it is for me to say “no” or to make an excuse because they won’t understand the truth when I tell them. *shrug* I have to quit letting it bother me, I guess.

[Tax-chick]

“Nothing that comes from outside a person can defile that person, but only what comes from inside.”

Other people’s misunderstanding or judgment doesn’t affect the core of you who are. You - and the Spirit of God - know your heart. You know that you are doing your best within the constraints that you have. There’s not much you can do about anything that comes from outside except to remember that it doesn’t touch the real you.

[Monkey Face]

...You know that you are doing your best within the constraints that you have....

Yes, I know that on my core level, but sometimes, it gets buried under just trying to exist within the parameters of CFIDS.

It's so very hard to "pretend" that all is well when I still have to tell people I don't socialize. They don't understand it, but its self-preservation. I'm not willing to give up even a gnat's eyebrow of real estate I've taken back from the disease, but I have no idea how to explain it in layman's terms.

[Silentgypsy]

This one’s Lord High Master of the Milky Way considering the latest Intergalactic Peace Plan. (Milky Way First!)

[Darksheare]

https://hackaday.com/2020/02/15/the-red-dwarf-talkie-toaster-made-real/

[Tax-chick]

I, for one, welcome our Feline Overlords from beyond the Milky Way.

[null and void]

Red Dwarf Ping!

[NicknamedBob]

Put an AI in charge of toasting and you bring on the heat death of the Universe.

[null and void]

Yeah. If that happens, we’re all toast!

[Tax-chick]

I don’t want home appliances to talk to me.

[null and void]

Alexa, check on Tax-chick...

[Tax-chick]

Worse than my mother!

[null and void]

In you mother’s eyes, you will always be three years old and somewhat retarded...

[Tax-chick]

Or 17 and a total raging pain.

[SuperLuminal]

I’m in just to get that lucky number 3220...