I plan on keeping his memory alive. He had grown into such an awesome man and I was so proud of him. He was a good father and his fiancée’s kids adored him. He’d been in the same job for 15 yrs and they thought the world of him. He made friends where ever he went. He was the spark in our family and we’ll never be whole again. I have questions but I know I’ll never have all the answers I’m seeking. I just have to trust in God and continue to pray for Ryan’s soul.
I’m so sorry for your loss too. Does it ever get easier?