Mental illness has no rhyme or reason and can strike ppl from all walks of life. The saddest part is that the bullet that ended my son’s life also wounded everyone around him who loved him. I wish ppl could understand that before they take this drastic step. I know my son never wished to cause so much pain to others when he pulled the trigger, but he was not in his right mind in those last 10 seconds.
I’m so sorry for your loss. That’s horrible, and I can’t imagine finding someone I love like that.
Having been un a similar mindset in the past (when I was at my worst in kidney failure), you’re convinced that everyone you love will be better off without you. It’s difficult to convince oneself otherwise, and some antidepressants can make this worse. Prescribing them isn’t a science, as it’s hard to get it right because it can take a few months to see any effects. Mixing them with alcohol makes it far worse.
That said, I don’t think he’d have given up on suicide if he didn’t have a firearm. Sadly, most won’t.
You are precisely right. I myself have stared into that abyss.
God gave me the realization that one’s heart and mind lie, and to not believe them, especially with such a momentous decision. That is what saved me.