You’re not lost by any means....the Lord knows where you are and also them. I sometimes think we hold on too tightly to our children and want to help when in fact they’re well old enough to live their own life without us...really.
I still think you need to refocus your life....start doing the things you enjoy. You will miss your grandkids for a time but they’ll come through this too once you put them in the Lords care...I’ll assume you’ve done that.
You’re son is the ONLY one who can fix his status and he can’t do that until he truly sees it without interference. ....God is faithful He has remarkable ways of opening peoples yes and it’s very very rare it will be through parents to grown children.
Let them live as they will....time has a way of making things clear. But important you channel your efforts to you and yours who are on your Homefront. That’s what you can control.
We’ll see. Yes, the Lord knows the way. Thx.