That’s pretty pathetic, and sad that he didn’t think he was worth spending the extra money on himself before he crashed to the earth. I’m glad he backed out in the end, and I hope he’s gotten help since that time. During my career, there were about 3 people I worked with that committed suicide, all with weapons. One blew his brains out in the driveway in front of his wife and kids while she was in the car leaving. Suicide is such a cowardly act, and leaves such a scar on the people left behind.
Some may say suicide is the ultimate courageous act. You’re sending yourself off into the great unknown willingly, with no idea what, if anything, may lie ahead.
I’ve never considered it either cowardly or courageous, just narcissistic and ignorant of the feelings of those around you. I understand the desperation that leads to suicide though.
My dad, my son, and my best friend from high school have all died from suicide. I don’t blame them or look down on them. They had their reasons. One was a woman and alcohol abuse, one was a woman and drug addiction, and the other was severe diabetes, long-term physical pain, and financial destitution. I don’t agree with any of those reasons as being enough to end one’s life over, but I understand the feelings and the thinking that led them to it.
If I can see them again in the afterlife, I will open my arms, tell them it’s good to see them, and ask “where’s the beer?”