I am the same way. I served 20 non-distinguished years in the Navy. I don’t feel bad about getting my retirement or medical benefits, because that was just part of the deal. I am, however, frequently hesitant to claim veterans benefits at stores, restaurants, etc. because there are so many much more deserving than me.
The purpose of this post is specifically not to elicit comments to dispute what I wrote. I’m not looking for sympathy, just expressing a personal feeling.
I would say, though, in your case, you’re overly self critical. I’m sure serving in Vietnam in any capacity was not a fun thing to do.
Let’s just say i observe all who sacrificed....and don’t forget us in the Submarine Force.....Deadly outfit to be in during WWII.
For accuracy, and the record:
I was Honorably Discharged having the “standard four” service ribbon bar, including the Good Conduct.
Nothing special. Really rather plain and undistinguished.
I was drafted, and did my 2, “retiring” as a permanent E4, and Acting Sgt (Back in The Nam, only,) and then onlt for a couple of months before being assigned to DC — and then out. Nothing special. No stories — just like millions of others who did Nothing Big. I was There. Of that, I am proud and satisfied.