“I dunno, I agree with Dave Grossman: if you are legally authorized (don’t start with me) to carry a weapon and you walk outside your home without it, you have chosen to be a sheep.”
I never leave the house without my concealed weapon. I drew it once and the two perps fled before it cleared my pocket; one of the shouting, “It’s cool, dude!” I will probably never need it again. But if I do I’ll have it. If I don’t, well that’s great.
My sister has a concealed permit and several guns she never carries. She says she’ll carry them if she needs them. No amount of logic will convince her it is better to carry and not need it than not to carry and need it. She has a dozen illogical excuses not to carry.
I think the same way as you. I hope I never need it but I will have it if I do.