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I would like to support what chris37 has shared with you. After 68 yrs. of life and being an observer of life, I have gone through crises and have watched others go through crisis. No one is spared from troubles in this life. God designed it that way so that we would turn to him. He brings us to the end of ourselves so that we cry out to Him. Your family is in that place now...you are in that place now but I want you to know God loves you more that anybody has ever loved you...he loves your daughter and wife. He wants to come into your life and show you how much He loves you. All you have to do is ask. That's it...just ask Him to please help you. Because of His son Jesus, He will hear you and answer your prayer. He loves your daughter so much and is waiting for her to turn to Him. He can deliver her from any and all drugs. He can strengthen you to stand up under all this emotional turmoil. He can touch your wife. He loves you, He's waiting for you to call on Him, He will set your daughter free. May His blessing flow through your family.

“He brings us to the end of ourselves so that we cry out to Him.”

That is truth and wisdom.

I was an atheist when I was younger, because everyplace I look for God, I do not find Him. Every time I ask God for this or that, I do not get it.

But that was just the folly of youth, I didn’t understand some things very well.

When I was at truly the edge of death from withdrawal symptoms so severe that they can and do kill, I prayed to Him, because I really needed help.

And he answered that time by giving me His strength to overcome this, and I know that it was His, because I had none.

I literally could not even stand up or speak or even write.

And yet somehow I endured this, it was absolute Hell. It took 3 months for me to even fall asleep, and another 3 months for my body to return to normal.

Unfortunately, because I am a stupid man who forgets things easily, over the next 3 or so years I backslid two more times where I messed around with the same damn drugs thinking oh I can control this...

But a voice reached through to me and asked me Chris, you know where this road ends, don’t you? And yes, I do. I would rather step in front of a moving train than go back to that place, and I definitely do not want to step in front of any train, so I stopped myself finally for good.

And now I know that sobriety is the ideal state of mind. I want to think clearly about things. I do not want to have blank spots in my memory where I cannot even remember large chunks of anything that happened. That seems like a really stupid way to live to me now.