Kelly, a friend of mine is in the same situation as you.
It’s often hard for us to forgive ourselves, even though God has forgiven us.
If you’ve repented and been forgiven, you WILL absolutely see that child one day.
Thanks for the kind words Catherine. From time to time I think about it and wish there was something positive I could turn it into...like somehow helping other women to make a different choice, to save the babies of course but also so they won’t have to suffer the rest of their lives with the knowledge. I just don’t know how to go about it as I’m very introverted, not good public speaker or what have you.