There's a famous novelette -- "Song of the Scaffold" or something like that? ---- about the Carmelites who were martyred during the French Revolution, focusing on one of them who was really timid, quaking, fainting, not "suited" so to speak for martyrdom. But...
Weak-kneed. Yo. If and when the time comes: honest to God I don't know about myself. Martyrdom? Who am I kidding? A raised voice sends me weeping, nose running, red and bulbous. Heck, a mere cross look and I dissolve like a salted slug.
But...
As far as I'm concerned, you have a free hand: you can use this in any way that seems most productive to you.
A chunk of it was written by Ann Barnhardt, who gave me permission to adapt into a letter to the bishops, or however I saw fit, and give it more circulation. ("Have at it," was her response.) You might want to run it past her at Ann Barnhardt ann@barnhardt.biz
(Don't worry about this e-mail address: she publicizes it herself at her website.)
Now there's a lady who needs to publish bigtime.
I hope I would have the courage to be martyred for the Faith, but you can’t really know how you will respond until the test arrives. Peter couldn’t imagine that he would ever deny his Lord but did so three times in one night.