It sounds like you really do know what to think...
I do. It just worries the crap out of me to always do so, these days, n a v. The rampant and widespread govt-industrial complex’ corruption, criminality, sabotage and yes, probably numerous politically-motivated murders over the past 10-15yrs, or more, are becoming bewildering. I too often look at things thru a microscope, and see their eyes staring back at me. Then it’s time for a gut-check. CCW is my friend.