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Anxiety

Anxiety huh? How about Generalized Anxiety Disorder? That is my SSDI illness. Now before you say rubbish let me explain something. Anxiety all too often is a secondary condition caused by a primary one. The problem is the primary condition often goes undetected possibly the persons entire lifetime.

It's real so is PTDS and been there done that. No pay check was worth what I went through to get it either. The G.A.D. in my case I found out two years into it is a secondary condition brought on by likely several primary ones. By several I mean just that and it's to where no name can be given it as such but it's sensory processing disorders including Vestibular which means hearing Inner Ear sensory related. I also have visual issues like single eye functional.

I found out a few weeks ago at a VA Clinic the seizure activity I have with this {severe upper torso spasms from audio and visual events} is likely a form of Epilepsy. I knew before that what it was called Myoclonic Seizures. I'm club footed from birth both feet and still served 4 years active NAVY and one year reserve drills Army Guards, fallen arches, and arthritis in legs and feet from walking off balance 52 years and it's a mess. Oh BTW I'm over 50% deaf, multi frequency Tinitus, and was placed on hearing conservation 32 years ago in the Navy. Even with hearing aids I can not understand what persons are saying many times.

With a cane now I usually walk. A Two years ago I didn't need a cane except when my back flared up. Now I need one to keep my balance and to lift my self up if I bend my knees because of arthritis.

I can also at any time go into what I call a brain fog also common to anxiety attacks. Actually likely a mild seizure where I just don't know where the heck I am, how I got there, what I'm doing there, etc. Did I say I was a HVAC Mechanic/Electrician/ and Boiler Operator before retiring? I had the sense to quit. No I take that back my brain and body made me quit one night at work. I was too darn stuborn to acknowledge I had some serious medical problems. This it me 16 years ago at the ripe old age of about 36. The SSDI doctors had to write something so they put down General Anxiety Disorder.

Don't let disorder names fool you. As for back pains? Compressed disk and crooked spine is in my history also. That too was a military physician diagnoses many years ago. Ever had a back grab so severe it put you down in the floor and all you could do was try and breath? My last physical a few months back I had shrunk from 5almost 5'11 to 5'8" yes that dioes impact the spine. Don't knock ones disability till you've walked a mile in their shoes or rode in their wheel chair or hear with their deaf ears etc.

Look I'm not flaming just pointing this out so people will not draw misconceptions about persons with disabilities. Are there some fakers and fraud? Sure likely so but the system is rigid. It is the hardest government program to qualify for and it takes a lot of documentation by doctors.

I know a man who several years ago due to a serious ongoing heart condition was told it's a matter of time meaning the next attack could take him which wasn't a maybe he would again have one or maybe not either. It took him two years and a lawyer to get disability and two appeals.

For what it's worth my days aren't idle. GOD was good to me in the fact He left me with considerable physical strength. Enough physical strength to still be able to care for my quad wife which with my own disability is about all I can handle on my plate. Yet if you saw me out you'd say he's healthy as a horse and if I said I was on disability you'd likely look at me say I could work. Disabilites have many forms. Not many folk go asking for them either.