[oneolcop]

Although your comment was not directed to me, I read it and, of course had a reaction. I had/have PTSD from VN, but also from being in six officer involved shootings and suffering the failures to save lives, even though it was impossible to do so. My wife, the saint, has stuck by me through all the violent events and my own outbursts. There are many out there who have it and live lives damaged by it.

Although I've never received any sort of counseling or treatment, I've had to deal with it myself. I have made adjustments in how I do things and I act in ways that are not what my impulses tell me to do. (Does that make sense?) When I want to kill someone, I have to walk away and take my mind elsewhere. When I have the dreams, i tell my wife about them. she listens and calms me.

Overall, these techniques have kept me out of trouble most of the time but not always. In the instances that my reaction to some minor aggravation has gotten me into trouble, I've tried to learn from the incident and to avoid repeating it. I can't have the window shade above the toilet open (even though we live in the woods and no one can see in) because of the sniper that exists in my mind waiting to take the shot when I'm framed by the window. It's a hell of a way to live.

[oh8eleven]

Although I've never received any sort of counseling or treatment
I suggest a visit or two to your local VA, VFW or other veterans' group if for no other reason than to just talk.
While most vets never talk about their experiences, even to each other, I was lucky because the guy I joined the MC with was in the same VN places, at the same times I was.
We've shared our good and bad memories for decades and I'm sure that's helped.